Wow.
holy emotional last blog..no??
I haven't stopped my challenge.
I have stopped blogging.
Life kind of blew up in my face, and I didn't really know how to handle it.
I'm still trying to figure it out, but I figured I should make a readers' appearance.
I have been so frustrated with myself. There are so many things that still need to be done in the next 6 months, and I feel like the clock is ticking, and time for "me" is running out.
I know it seems a bit ridiculous. I will always have time for myself, I realize that.
That being said, I don't want to waste time.
Yes this is a "bucket list" type year. Yes, I'm dedicating a year of being good to myself, and taking care of myself.
But, I guess I just want to dive in, and get lost in myself.
Not in a self absorbed way, but in a beautiful, honest way.
I deserve to look in the mirror and like who I see.
Not what I see, but WHO I see.
In the past month, I have had too many days, of staring at myself, wondering who the hell is staring back at me.
I want to be proud of who I am becoming.
I am NOT a pushover.
I was, for SO long. I put up with anything from anyone, just to have people in my life.
I've realized..... screw em.
The few people that are left in my life, are fighting to be a part of it.
I've let go of toxic people in my life, and unfortunately I didn't realize how toxic, until they were gone.
It hurts, but this is part of the journey.
Part of MY journey.
Those people never fought to have me in their lives. They had demands, and selfish expectations of what THEY needed out of the relationship, and it was NEVER a two way street.
I'm better off.
New York in may.
London England in October.
and tentatively a birthday trip to vegas in August.
I don't really know what else to blog about.
Honestly, I could type for hours, pouring my heart out. Filling in everyone on my personal life.
My heartache.
Oh to be a fly on the wall hey?
Someone once said: "Your true self is who you are, when no one is watching"
I would like to see how people are, when they think they're alone.
Forever a mystery.
Until I can afford to put hidden cameras in everyone's homes.. LOL. Just kidding..
Kind of.
Instead of making some cheesy new years resolution, challenge yourself to be someone to be proud of.
You DESERVE to be proud of your reflection.
Be a GOOD person, when no one is watching.
Love and Honesty,
Cass
